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Name: Beatrice =)
Birthday: 12/19/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: God. family. friends. Jeff. band. shopping. roxy. watching movies. people that make me laugh. sushi. mochi ice cream. telling jokes. 11:11 wishes. minute-long hugs. surprises. handwritten letters. kisses on the cheek. going to the beach. admiring nature. hugs from behind. romantic comedies. love.
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AIM:  i beat ricee
Member Since:
9/8/2003
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| In Boston and loving everything about it.
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Nine hours down, two months to go.
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| A week after graduation, and I am home at last. What a great, great feeling.
It feels so good. I'm not a kid anymore.. I'm finally done. I repeat it to myself thousands of times, but I still can't believe it. I'm done. Done.
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| A few random blurbs about random things:
-My last and final prom was amazing. Perfect location, perfect limo group, perfect dress.. and I definitely had the best and most chivalrous date out there :)
-I had my last and final band concert yesterday night. And as much as I moan and groan when we have to play in concert band, I think I'm going to miss it. I really enjoy talks/gossiping with Grace and Emerald, turning around to bully Arthur, laughing at Jeff and James.. I cherish these moments.
-Today, I went to Jeff's house and we recorded "Realize" by Colbie Caillat on his computer with his high-tech microphone and advanced music editing program. Strangely, it felt so weird to touch the keys again.. they seemed almost foreign to me. I realized that I hadn't touched a piano in months. Yes, months. I've been playing piano for around twelve years? And now I don't play at all. That will definitely change soon.
-Jeff's younger sister is an absolutely amazing singer. My mouth just falls open when I hear her sing.. I wish I could sing as beautifully as her. =)
-Allen Yang is one of the funniest kids I know. He gave his poetry presentation in English today, and I honestly could not stop smiling/laughing. He is sooo hilarious in his sarcastic, I-don't-care-about-anything way! I've known him for sucha long time, but he still continues to amaze me. And Renaud showed us this beautiful charcoal drawing he made. I was freaking blown away; I couldn't even believe it. How is it that at the end of senior year, I'm finding out more new things about people I've known forever? It's crazy how these things work out.
-I went on the roof of my house with my sisters the other day. It gave me a totally new perspective to life. Suddenly, I felt so insignificant, so small and hopeless compared to everything else. The drama, the worries, the frustrations of high school are so freaking pointless in comparison to everything else. The grades? The college you'll go to? The boy that you'll like for the next month? It'll all work out in the end, and I truly truly believe that with all my heart. Don't spend time worrying about such insignificant things. God has a plan for everything.
-I love painting my nails pretty colors. Especially dark colors.. it makes me feel rebellious :)
-For those of you who know me, you know that I am frugal beyond belief. I hate spending money on anything and I am honestly a true Asian. It takes me hours and hours to buy anything and I spend so much time in the dressing rooms trying on the same clothes over and over to ensure that my buy will be 100% worth it. All that money that I got from working at Cold Stone's.. saved in my little piggy bank. Every penny and dime that I found, I hoard away. I only spend money on birthday presents, school events, and food for Jeff. Other than that, I keep my money secure and stored. ..But now that senior year is ending, I somehow feel different about my money saving ways. I mean, I only live once right? Why keep all my money that worked so hard for in my piggy bank? Why not go out to eat more, treat Jeff to meals more, treat my parents to meals more, shop a little more, spend my money on the people that I love? I'll earn all that money back someday; I don't have to absolutely refuse to use it. I am so freaking frugal, you have no idea. But in these next couple months, that is definitely going to change.
-My mom is a wonderful person. The older I get, the more beautiful I think she is - both inside and out. She works so hard for our family and she never complains, even when I'm being a horrible daughter. She is and always will be my favorite person in the entire world.. seriously. If you bad mouth my mom, you are really going to hear it from me. No joke. I WILL yell at you.
-I love Jeff's mom too; she's like a second mom to me and she does soo much for me. I feel terrible and completely undeserving of everything she gives/does for me, especially since I'm not even her kid and I'm a complete weirdo girl that her son just happened to fall in love with. But despite this, she still treats me like her daughter and showers me with lots of love :) And I really appreciate that.
-LOL today, me and Jeff were watching One Tree Hill season finale on TiVo. Then Jeff's dad came in and he was like "I think I'm telepathic!" And he started reciting all the characters' lines before they even said it. "Oh what? I knew the line before they said it? Telepathy! Telepathy! I'm obviously telepathic!" And then he just walked out. Me and Jeff were just like WTH? LOL but I was laughing soooo hard at how funny he was acting, hahaha. It made me happy.
-I'm going to see Taylor Swift in concert tomorrow at the Staples Center!!!!!! ALKJDFKLASASLFKADJSF! LKAJKSFLJADSF! I can't even explain it.. I'm so excited! It's my first concert in my entire life! And thank you Mrs. M for the tickets!!!!!!! :)
-You know what? I hate hot weather. And typically, I would complain and complain about the 80 degree heat that gives me daily headaches and makes me sweat and feel gross. But today, it wasn't so bad. You make think I'm silly for hating hot weather, but it really is extremely difficult for me to befriend the heat.. my headaches are unbearable at times. But I'm trying. After all, I will be enduring MUCH more horrible weather next year in Boston.. 80 degree SoCal weather has got nothing on me. At least I didn't get a headache today!
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It's such a strange concept.. to know that I've spent four years in the same old 4000 student high school. And not even once did I ever completely sit back and enjoy life. Honestly. I don't think I have. Every summer, I spent it worrying about the next year, worrying about what classes to take, worrying about SAT classes, worrying about who to hang out with. And I suppose that is the downside of attending such a rigorous and competitive high school - you never really have the time to sit back and smell the flowers. You spend so much time working on projects, studying for tests, studying for SATs, studying for APs, forgetting about your family in the process.
And now, at the end of the road, I can just kick off my shoes and enjoy the ride. Seriously, it is an amazing feeling. It's amazing to sit in your classroom and not be able to stop smiling at your classmate because he is so freaking hilarious. It is amazing to look at your mom with such appreciation and love in the little things she does. It's amazing to find happiness in sitting on the roof and watching the sunset with your sisters.
I suppose that overall, I'm starting to become more observant of my surroundings and reflective of my last month as a high schooler. I'm finally appreciating teachers, friendships, classes, nature, life.. It took four years for me to get where I am today, but hey. At least I'm starting now.
Peace and love,
Beatrice | | |
| Note to everyone:
Please do NOT use the word "rape" incorrectly (i.e. "I'm gonna rape that test!" "I'm gonna rape finals!"). Ugh. Even typing that out as examples made me feel freaking disgusted. It bothers me sooo much when people use the word rape like it's nothing. People out there are being harassed, assaulted, thrown to the ground, and freakin' RAPED and you choose to use that word to describe how such trivial matters? .. I don't think you realize the full meaning of the word rape if you are using it like it's nothing.
Try replacing the definition of the word in your sentences rather than the actual word. Why don't you use say "I'm going to beat up that test until she can't move and then I can attack her and take full control of her," or "I'm going to stick my freaking thingee in the test even if she doesn't want to and is screaming and crying for me to stop but I'm not going to because this is what I want." ... Do you still like using the word rape now? Do you? It really isn't right. Soo many girls are forced to have sex against their will. Do not use that word so carelessly.
Seriously, feel fortunate and thankful you haven't been raped. Dn't PROMOTE the idea of "raping" something in your everyday language.. It is so wrong. Yeah, everything about our generation sucks - music is so sexual, dancing is dirty, teenagers are disrespectful, cussing is simply commonplace. I hate it all, but those are things I can tolerate. Using the word "rape" like it's nothing.. that's different. That is one thing I absolutely cannot stand.
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